Love Letters: The Beginning of Our Song

A love song begins

Twenty seven years ago I entered into the most important relationship I would ever enter…

I remember so many people telling me Your name and where You came from. I heard all about Your family heritage, and the long road You traveled to meet me where I was standing. You seemed so unreal and like You could never be interested in me. But they still wanted to introduce us!

People spoke so highly of You. I heard numerous stories of the wonderful things You have accomplished. How could one person be all that I’m hearing? My mind and heart battled with the thought. Then the day came…

I remember it like no other, the day I finally met You. I could tell You were there because I recall feeling exactly what they told me I would. It started as a beautiful picture of love, You showed me what You had done for me. Our heart to heart told me You loved me. Me? How could this be? You asked me if I would trust and believe You, and I said yes! You lavished me in Your love.

The relationship was on fire for a while, at least until I felt like I kept messing up. I look back and see that I thought I couldn’t measure up. You deserved more in this relationship than I was giving. The ups and downs of life seemed to keep carrying me further and further away, yet You remained there waiting for me. Our relationship floated high and low tide for twenty years, and then the tide changed…

During the darkest times of my life when I felt incredibly alone, You showed me who and where You were. It was as if the fire that had been lit all those years ago was being flamed in the very pit of my soul. I was so overcome with regret, shame, guilt, and feelings of worthlessness that my eyes couldn’t see past the pain that my heart was feeling deep inside. I sat alone in my bedroom floor curled into a fetal position and cried uncontrollably.

Suddenly, a familiar feeling rushed through me as I encountered You like never before. Time froze as life entered me again. There I was face to floor having a soul to soul with the One who held me firmly as I rocked in agony. You told me You loved me, again, but this time it penetrated in places it didn’t before. You asked me if I would trust You with all of my life, and believe all the promises You have made me, and I said yes! My life was overwhelmed with Your Presence, and even as I write these words I feel a swarm of chills. To my astonishment, You really were interested in me, messy and flawed ol me!

What began as a beautiful picture of love at the age of 11 became a beautiful love affair at the age of 31, the day my love song began, the beginning of us! Some days I still can’t believe how amazing You truly are! You forgive me for every mess up and You always pick me back up. When I am feeling unloved, You encompass me with Your unfailing, never-ending love. When I’m having a bad day, You kiss me on the forehead with sweet tenderness. When I have a bad attitude, You straighten it out and set me back on course. When I cry, it’s You that wipes my tears. When I laugh, You rejoice with me. I never knew true love existed in such a pure form until I met You and experienced it for myself.

I never thought there would be a relationship that would stick through this life with me. I mean after all, I do know all of my flaws and imperfections so very well. The relationship wasn’t always first in my life and it wasn’t always where or how it should be. I’ve done a lot of things I’m not proud of, I’ve made some poor decisions and choices, and I’ve messed up more times than my poor hands can count.

But You have been the One person in my life that has never turned away from me, even on my worse days. You see me for who I am and love me anyway. You help me become a better person! You chose me! Me! Sometimes I like to just sit and immerse myself in the truth of Your love. You have stolen my heart, but then again, how can You steal something that You created for You?! Thank You for loving me, even the me that can’t seem to get it together on most days! You have changed me from the inside out!

Love Always,

Your Daughter who has never known love until You

P.S. to my readers:
Twenty seven years ago, I accepted love, and twenty years later I fell deeply in love with the One who gave everything for me. The life altering truth is, He’s in love with You just the same. He gave everything for you too! If you’ve never met Him, let me introduce you to the love of my life, Jesus Christ. He’s like no other, and He will change your life! Life may not always be easier, but it sure is sweeter all because of Him.

“This is real love–not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.” ~1 John 4:10

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5 Ways Driving Can Be A Lot Like Life

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Driving to work on the interstate I began to notice things all around me. The more I thought about them, the more I realized how driving can be a lot like life, go with me here…

1. It doesn’t matter how you’re moving, there’s always going to be those who want to fly past you like you’re sitting still.

As I entered the highway at 70 mph and continued driving, I noticed all of these vehicles quickly approaching my rear bumper and giving their best shot to push me out of their way. When it didn’t work, they flew around me and cut me off, which brings me to my number 2!

2. There’s always going to be a struggle where one has to decide to take the position of standing firm in what they believe and letting things go.

These vehicles that didn’t seem to be happy at my speed of traveling, which may I add was slightly above the speed limit, would quickly bolt around me and cut me off. At this moment I had a choice to make, do I let rage take over and fly back at their bumper and do the same as they did to me, or stand firm in what I feel is right and safe for me and let them go. Luke 6:31 says, “Do to others as you would have them do to you”, and there are many other scriptures that tell us not to seek revenge, that love covers an offense, and to forgive one another. It’s not for us to take rage and fly back, it’s for us to stand firm in what we feel right is for us, and let things go in forgiveness.

(Ephesians 4:32, Proverbs 14:29, Proverbs 10:12)

3. We can either be a follower and go with the crowd, or we can be a leader and set the pace.

I can’t lie, it seemed as if I was being left far behind as multiple cars quickly passed me. I even thought to myself, is there something wrong with my car? Why am I so far behind and unable to keep up? Maybe there isn’t anything wrong with my car or me for that matter other than the fact that I like to set my pace within the boundaries that have been set for guidance and safety. Following the crowd can lead us to paths that aren’t right for us, (like a speeding ticket!), and take us into traps that the enemy has set. But being a leader and setting the pace, that can take us to our predetermined destination safely. God had our path set before we were ever born. He doesn’t want us to follow the crowd, He wants us to follow His Son, Jesus Christ, and be a leader that sets the pace for others to find Him.

(Psalm 139:16)

4.  Guard rails are there for a purpose, they are not restriction, but protection.

As I was driving and trying to ignore the fact that I felt like a turtle in a world full of cheetahs, I noticed guard rails to my right, and to my left. They serve a purpose and it’s up to us as to how we see them. We could look at them as restriction and a challenge, or we can see them as protection that keeps us safe from entering areas where we could get hurt. So often God’s commandments are seen as harsh restrictions, but they are really placed there with the utmost love. He knows what lies outside of those rails and He wants us to be safe, protected, and unharmed. His guard rails help us to become over comers instead of being overcome by life.

1 John 5:3-4 )

5. There are always going to be others further ahead of us. We can either drive ourselves crazy trying to keep up, or we can relax and know that we’ll get there when we’re suppose to.

I looked ahead and seen the number of cars that had left me behind, and I had a choice to make. I could either speed up and try to keep up with everyone else and put myself at risk for a speeding ticket, wasting my gas, or a collision, or I could stay at my current speed and place in traffic and get to where I’m going when I’m suppose to get there. I have learned I will always get to where God wants me to be in His perfect timing. Speeding and trying to keep up will only waste my energy, burn me out and put me at risk for not arriving at my destination in the desired state that God needs me in.

(Galatians 5:7, Jeremiah 29:11)

Okay, so I said five things, but here’s a bonus that God reminded me of rather quickly:

We’re all going to be in both positions at one point or another in our lives. By the afternoon ride home, I flew up on a bumper and went around on my merry way and saw them only in the view of my mirror. We’re all human and all of us fall short (Romans 3:23).

Who knew driving could be such a valuable life lesson! God loves to show us that He’s in our day-to-day lives! He is a very involved Father, and I am thankful for every teachable moment! Hopefully, after this lesson, I will be more mindful while I’m driving and in life.