I was only sixteen years old when you chose to have us meet. There he was standing with a broom in his hand and doing silly things to make me look and laugh. I couldn’t help but smile and let out an explosion of laughter at his every successful attempt. It truly took just one word he spoke to me to change my life forever, “Hello.”
Hello, and just like that you attached our heart and souls forever. You sprinkled our first date with memorable moments that would last us a lifetime, and would feed us joy and laughter with every recall. I love to hear him remember and even tell others how I spit my food out on his arm, yes those flying tomato seeds, as he made me laugh yet again. I was amazed that by the end of the night he still wanted to go steady with the girl who gave him a shower of tomato just hours earlier at the steakhouse dinner table.
I didn’t know that night would be the beginning of many curvy roads full of obstacles and traffic jams, but I did know that it was You who placed us together. Somehow because of that, I knew we would be okay, no matter what came at us. Everyone thought we were crazy and too young, but we knew we were destined to be on this journey hand in hand.
Today, as I look back over the last twenty-one years, I see Your hands all over us. Oh, how many times did we make the wrong decisions and choices, and how many moments did we come so close to losing it all. But You, being the faithful Father You are, You held us together. You weren’t about to let anything separate what you joined together. Never have I seen Your power so much at work in our lives before!
You blessed us beyond measure when You chose us to be the parents of this amazing and beautiful angel that has been a part of our lives for over fifteen years already. We couldn’t understand what You saw in us, but were so thankful for your mercy and grace. Our hearts were in pieces watching her experience such hard times at such an early age, but You mended them as ministry grew from her brokenness and her faith blossomed what seemed like way beyond ours on most days!
Today, as I sat in that waiting room, I felt You just like I had all the times before. I felt the peace You were giving me, I heard Your voice calming me, and I felt Your love surrounding me. I know my mind has went many places in the last several months, especially the last twenty-four hours, that I didn’t want it to go, and I just want to say thank You. Thank You for being faithful and reminding my heart how You have welded us together, for how You sustained us through some of life’s worse trials, and how You have always brought us safely through.
Although I felt out of my mind, You remain in control. More than ever I just want to say Thank You for bringing him into my life when You did. My life wasn’t going down the best path, and You used him to help change that. We have seen how much stronger we are together, not only with one another, but with You. Our lives may not be easy, and we may have had to travel down some damaged roads, but You have brought us through, and we know this time will be no different.
So today, Daddy, I come to You, You who have been faithful, merciful, loving, and forgiving, and I say I trust You. You’ve given me every reason to trust You, and no reason not to. Take care of Him please. I know the healing power that is in Your touch, touch Him. It hurts to watch Him hurt, it’s scary to not know what’s wrong, and sometimes scarier to think we might find out. I feel helpless to him in the midst of it. The waiting room is filled with many distractions and noise but it’s also filled with Your presence, the One who hears our voice in the midst of it all and has the voice we can choose to hear above all!
So tonight, I pour my heart out to You, everything I have, everything I am, and everything I could offer, and I am at Your feet asking You to do all that You do best, in His life, in our lives. I trust in You, You ARE our Healer! I know that in the coming days we’re going to see Your mighty hand at work in ways that will blow our minds and You’re going to do it all again! I really just want to say Thank You in advance for what You are already doing and how You are taking care of everything. Thank You for loving us, for forgiving us, and for seeing something in us especially when we can’t see it in ourselves. Thank You for being faithful! Thank You from the waiting room.
I Love You!
Your Daughter who longs to sit in Your lap and lay at Your feet. <3
P.S. Thank You for attaching our heart and souls together, with Yours. You’ve changed our lives!