Puppet Shadows and Late Night Melodies

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So my husband has this weird thing that’s kind of adorable and it changed everything this one night. He loves to wait until it’s time to go to sleep to really talk. It’s something that has drove me crazy, but yet it’s something that I love because it’s in those hours that conversations are sparked and meaningful moments are shared.

Just a couple of weeks ago we had one of these soul bearing talks that also led to God sharing something with me on my bedroom wall.  As we’re talking, I had turned the flashlight from my phone on so that I could see his eyes in rhythm with his words. As the light shined directly on my wall, my hand passed over and we began to chuckle as we saw puppet shadows hovering over us!

I couldn’t help but notice that the closer I moved my hand toward the light the more the image grew and the further away the smaller it got. There in the midst of late night conversations between husband and wife, an even bigger conversation started between Daddy and Daughter!

You see, the conversation that was taking up the sleeping hours between my husband and I was mainly due to how I was feeling about some things in my life that seemed to be getting larger, and that’s where Daddy stepped in to sing His lullaby over me so beautifully!

His song was just what I needed to be reminded of, my image of who He is grows the closer I am to Him. I laid there and constantly moved my hand closer to and further away from the light as if I was researching what He was saying to me. All the research in the world couldn’t change the truth that was sang in perfect harmony to the deepest places within my soul. The closer I am to Him, the more I see Him for who He is, a Great God who is greater than anything I’m facing. The further away I am the more I see my problems.

Sometimes when life casts dark shadows over us through our circumstances, it’s easy to forget what we know to be true. Remembering what we know about God and His promises will help carry us through even the toughest of times.

The melody that filled the room in those late hours caused my heart to slow dance with the very One who causes it to beat. It was almost as if every breath I took afterwards swayed in perfect rhythm with the One who loves me more than anyone ever could. I floated as light as a feather once again as my focus was now on the truth that God has faithfully reminded me of many times, “But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge, I will tell of all your deeds.” Psalm 73:28.

When I draw near to God everything else pales in comparison. It is God who has control over my life, who lightens my load, and is greater than any problem that could ever cast itself over me, He is my refuge! That night, all because my husband waited until bedtime to really talk to me, I heard the voice that was able to soothe even the roughest of seas. I can’t help but think that if he wasn’t who he was, I would have missed this late night conversation that led to my finding peace once again.

God can use any moment to speak to us what He knows we long to hear. He is a limitless God that sings over us the perfect melody that draws us closer to Him. He loves us in ways that leave us breathless and reminds us who He is with something as simple as light and puppet shadows.

Just as my husband smiled at me because He knew this would turn into something I had to share in writing, I closed my eyes, casted all of my anxieties on the One who cares for me and drifted off to a night of peaceful sleep to the tune of my Daddy’s lullaby.

What anxieties or problems are you dealing with today? Can I just encourage you to cast them away to the One who cares for you as you draw closer to Him and rest in His promises? The closer we are to Him the more we see how much Greater He is than anything we face. Even the darkness is no match for our Light who has the power to cast away every shadow!

“Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7

The voice that came from my rear view mirror

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The sound of Hope dripped from my rearview mirror…

I’ve always been the kind of girl who loves to express my personality, my beliefs and my passions in an external way! Since I was eighteen years old and had my own car, I have always had things that mean something to me drip from my rearview mirror. The personality ornaments that wrap around it may not be understood by all who see them, but they have special meaning to me each time I look at them!

Today while I was driving in on my way to work, (and I use that world loosely because I love what I do), I noticed one of the few hanging much lower than it normally does as if it was trying to say something to me. As my eyes shifted from the road for a moment to take a closer look, my heart was clearly trying to leap from the seat belt that is my chest! The pounding that I felt was the sound of my heart beating in gratitude to its Creator!

Lately, I have found myself questioning a lot of things in my life, wondering about the path that I’m on, and to be completely honest with you, doubting where God has me standing in so many ways. I have let fear and anxiety run rampant in my heart and mind giving way to voices that wasn’t speaking my Daddy’s words. I allowed negativity and toxicity to circle around and within me in directions they had no permission to go!

That one personality drip that was set apart from the rest of the group today was God reminding me to get my focus back and keep it there. I quickly realized that He was getting my attention in a way that He knew would speak to His girl’s heart! At that moment it wasn’t just a fun way of expressing what I’m passionate about in my car, it was God’s voice speaking directly to me through the word that was written on it, Hope.

You see, my desire, passion, and vision has been to share with others the hope that I have found in Christ, to help them see there’s hope in Him no matter what they face. From the time my life fell apart a few years ago straightforward to this day, that is my one and only desire, to lead others to Him who is Hope. I have such a deep passion to not only lead others to Hope but to see Him in their everyday life because He is everywhere. Hope never hides! But, I have allowed so many things to cloud my vision, and the keywords that breaks my heart is I have allowed.

I realize the enemy doesn’t want people knowing there’s hope because he would much rather keep them depressed, discouraged, defeated, and feeling hopeless. With each smoke bomb that has come my way to create a distraction, I am the only one who can walk a different way so that I’m not caught in the smoky distractions of the enemy. It bothers me that I stood there and lost my focus. But God whispered ever so lovingly today in my ears and it echoed deep in my heart that if I will just keep my focus on Him, He’ll keep our passion and vision in clear view!

Sometimes in life we lose our focus, the focus of what it is that God wants us to do with Him and what He wants to do through us. We let things like other voices and opinions, numbers and misguided goals smoke bomb us and we find ourselves lost in the midst of everything that doesn’t really matter. What truly matters is what God has called us to do because He is the One that has called us.

No matter what it is that is trying it’s best to distract you from what God is calling you to, listen to the whispers of the voice calling out to you!  “Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” Isaiah 30:21   God is faithful to speak to us right where we need it most in the moment that we’re most desperate for it. When we feel lost in everything, God will redirect us to that one thing that He has laid out in our hearts for us to follow. Whether we turn to the right or to the left, our ears will hear His voice telling us which way to go! Thankful today for the voice that came from my rear view mirror!

Lord, help us today that no matter what’s begging for our distracted attention to keep our focus on You and You alone. No other goal, no other number, and no other purpose is more important than what’s important to You and what You have divinely orchestrated for our lives. Clear the smoke that surrounds us and draw us closer. ~In Jesus Name, Amen

Crayons, and lights, and blustery winds, Oh my!

 

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“Where are my crayons and coloring book? I want my toys, my blankie, and my cartoons!” These are the very words that echoed from within my adult soul today!
I woke up earlier than I had anticipated, ready to face the day ahead of schedule! I skipped to the bathroom with a smile and extra pep in my step! “Today is going to be a great day! I’ll go grocery shopping, let my tired husband sleep, and I’ll spend time with my beautiful daughter!”

Just as I was about to complete my ensemble, I stepped into the laundry room, and looked out the back door. I was reminded of a scene from Winnie the Pooh! Today was a day that Pooh and Piglet would have been wearing their scarves and carrying their umbrellas as they talked about the blustery wind. I had decided I wasn’t going to let it stop me, I was ready to take on the world, or so I thought until the world brought it on!

We made our way out the door bundled in our hoodies and headed toward the car. Beautiful fall color leaves flew through the air. As I turned the key, I noticed these lights staring back at me! It’s like they were saying “not going, not going, not going.” I took a deep breath as I turned the car off, and turned it back on. Now they were saying, “told you, told you, told you!”

My husband was still warm and sleeping away getting much-needed rest, so I picked up my cell to call my Dad. Just as the words rolled off his tongue, “I think it could be the alternator”, I felt something inside of me kicking and screaming! “Now, what’s this?” I pushed it to the side and made the executive decision to wake up my man from his blissful sleep! As his eyes slowly opened to see his unsmiling wife standing over him, “What’s wrong?” he asked.

I proceeded to tell him about the evil lights that are mocking me, and he whisked off outside in the blustery day to try to come to my rescue! My mind had already settled on what those lights blared at me, I wasn’t going anywhere! So I sat at my dining room table with my laptop and checkbook ready to pay bills for the month.

Just then my Knight in a hoodie walks in the door to confirm what had been said. Taking another deep sigh, I wondered what had happened to that feeling of it’s going to be a great day!? Just then my knight said something that suddenly mocked those lights, “I replaced that alternator a few months ago!” The Angel chorus was the sound my heart heard as suddenly it was like the sun was shining over my table!

It is true, there are days that we want our coloring book, crayons, and blankie as we watch cartoons. The truth is some days it’s just not fun being an adult. But as my adult soul hushed the screaming child inside of me, God reminded me that it’s through these moments that He has the opportunity to show us who He is, all over again!

God spoke these words to me that He has often repeated, “The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronmy 31:8. I wasn’t afraid, but I was feeling discouraged that we would need to spend this money all over again. But God was faithful to remind me that He goes before and prepares the way, and works it all out. You see, we didn’t have to pay for that part because it was defective! It was replaced for free and I never made it out of the driveway so I didn’t break down anywhere!

I almost let the spoiled child inside of me convince me that I didn’t want to be an adult anymore! But the moments that God shows me who He is when I am feeling frustrated and discouraged are the moments that I wouldn’t trade for a coloring book and crayons! It may not be easy and it may require more than I feel I have in me at times, but the exciting part is seeing how much Christ has in me and how He paves the way, always!

I imagine Tigger joining Pooh and Piglet as they dance in the blustery wind celebrating how wonderful God is and how He puts the bounce back in our day! What God allows to roll out, He will work out! Here’s to life’s little moments that turn into Praise God moments!

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