The Fight of Doubt

The big fight is on, the bells have rung, and so it begins…

One of the biggest fights I face in my life is doubt. Doubt seems to find its way into the deepest part of my heart and soul and it tries to corrupt the changes that Christ has made in me. It holds up a mirror that is made up of pictures of the past and tries to distract me just enough to where I am looking more in that mirror than I am in God’s word for my identity.

The mistakes we have made in the past always seem to be what flashes the brightest in our minds. Those mistakes don’t define us, but for some reason we allow them to walk too far into our hearts, giving them too much freedom within us. If a destructive person was to walk into our homes and begin tearing down everything that has been built we would be quick to ask them to leave, so we should act on doubt in the same manner because it threatens to tear down everything Christ has reconstructed within us!

I know within my own struggles with doubt, I don’t always recognize it right away for what it is. I give it too many other names, and calling it more than what it is really is. I’m not sure why I seem to be blindsided by it each time it comes to visit, it never changes how it shows up or how it works. I do know that when I have let too much time pass before I get alone with God is when I am more likely to be exposed to it. Breaking away for alone time with Him is more than reading His word and praying, it’s listening to His voice, what He has to say to us, and how He affirms us in these areas that we are struggling with. His voice is able to speak into our hearts the way no other voice can, affirming our spirit and shining truth into the darkness of our flesh where the lies are always anxiously awaiting the chance to rise to the surface and stop us in our tracks.

The truth is anything that Christ calls me to do, I am only able to do through Him (John 15:5). Nothing relies on my abilities but more on my willingness, obedience and availability. When I look in the mirror of truth, God’s word, I am more likely to believe what He says about me and who I am today rather than what my past has to say about who I was yesterday. Galatians 2:20 says, “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” When I focus on the truth that I died to the flesh and have Christ living in me, and I in Him, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil 4:13).

Doubt has no choice but to die when we realize who is alive in us and that it is through His power that we will do what He is leading us to! If He is asking us to do something, He will equip us with what we need every step of the way. Our part is to have an open heart and a willing spirit to follow Him. The difficulties, trials, and persecution we meet along the way is only allowed to aid in the equipping process. My challenging part is to keep those truths at the front of my mind, and evict the lies as quick as they try to intrude. Following Paul’s advice….
“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.” Philippians 4:8