Becoming Passionate

I am a very passionate person! When something is important to me, and it has become my focus, I get very passionate about it. When we love something with everything that we are, and with everything that we have within us, it becomes our passion! I can recall several times in my life that I have become very passionate about something, maybe something that I have tried, that I enjoy, or that I was determined to accomplish. About three years ago, I had lost my passion for anything in life. I had no passion inside of me anywhere for anything. I got lost in the world. I had forgotten that even though I live in the world that I’m not suppose to be of the world.

“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2

My life had become something that was lost, dark, out of control, and nothing to be proud of. There were so many circumstances that had taken place in my life that I allowed to change my life, and that’s not what is suppose to happen. Circumstances are temporary unless we allow them to consume us then they become a permanent fixture in our lives and change who we are, what we stand for, and what we are about. As much as I hate to admit it, that’s exactly what I allowed to happen. I wanted my passion again, I wanted my life again, I wanted to live again! Three years ago when I had finally realized what my life had become, I decided to make a change! After all, if we don’t like how things are that’s what we do, we change them. Who better to change my life than the one who gave me my life, my creator, the author of my life story!

I had no idea what he had in store for me, but I knew I had failed, and what he could do I knew would be better than what I could do! I made the decision to give God back the control of my life that I had lost! It never had any business in my hands because I can never truly be in control of my life. The only thing I could do was make a complete and total mess of it! Jesus says in John 14:6 “I am the way and the truth and the life!”

After giving my life back over to God, it has become more beautiful than I could ever imagine! When I say beautiful, I don’t mean perfect or without struggles,heartache,pain,disappointment, because well that’s life here on earth! I mean I can get through those struggles with His help, my heart becomes mended because of His healing touch, my pain can turn into joy regardless of my circumstances, and my disappointment turns into hope!

After all that He has done in my life I found my passion in life again! Only this time my passion isn’t something of this world, my passion has become my Father, my Creator, the author of my story! I realized how much He loves me! He took me from this pit that I had caused myself to fall into, and lifted me up on the rock! He took the broken mess of a life that I had and turned it back into what He meant for it to be all along!

He stood beside me when no one else did, He never left my side, never let me down, never disappointed me, never hurt me, just loved me and was there for me! “I was pushed back and about to fall, but the Lord helped me!” Psalm 118:13 After watching how took me and turned me around, and gave me my life back, how could I not be passionate about him??

Passion – ardent love or affection;a strong affection or enthusiasm;the object of intense desire;intense;driving; devotion

Passionate – having powerful emotions;showing or expression strong emotion;marked by passion

My passion has become my Savior, my God,my Father, my Refuge, my Strong Tower, my Deliverer, my Healer, my Redeemer! God is my focus in my life, He is my desire! Mark 12:30 says “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength!”

When I look back at everything He has done in my life, I owe Him everything! I can’t even begin to praise Him enough for what He’s done, for giving me life again! I will spend my days, my hours, my minutes praising Him, with every breath that I have! I have that intense desire to be more like Him, to live my life for Him, to praise & worship Him, to love Him, to share Him, to tell everyone about Him & what He’s done in my life, because I know He can do it for them too! After all when you know the way to true happiness, you don’t keep it to yourself!

“The Lord has done great things for us, and we are filled joy!” Psalm 126:3 “Sing to him, Sing praise to him, tell of all his wonderful acts!” Psalm 105:2

I have recently been through some very difficult trials with my daughters health and God has worked amazing miracles in her life and in her healing! I have watched him work in ways that have been awesome to watch! If I was to sit back and not share with everyone around me what God has done, I would have wasted that pain in my life. I don’t want to waste it! God doesn’t want me to waste it! He doesn’t waste any trial in our life! He allows the trials to come our way because we learn through our trials, we draw closer to Him during our trials, we grow and develop through them! One of the lessons I have learned is to look at my trials and see what it is that God is trying to teach me?

He is more concerned about our character than He is our comfort. I don’t want to waste what we’ve been through, I don’t want to keep God’s grace, love, mercy, kindness, healing touch, miracles, and awesome works a secret, I want to go and tell! We are commanded to go and tell what He has done for us & to praise Him! Here are just a few of my favorites!

I will praise you Oh Lord with all of my heart. I will tell of all your wonders! – Psalm 9:1

My mouth will speak in praise of the Lord. Let every creature praise his holy name forever & ever! – Psalm 145:21

I will praise the Lord all my life; I will sing praise to my God as long as I live. – Psalm 146:2

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord! – Psalm 150:6

Come & listen, all you who fear God, let me tell you what he has done for me! – Psalm 66:16

I will praise Gods name in song & glorify him with Thanksgiving. – Psalm 69:30

Yes, I am a very passionate person, passionate about my awesome God who has been so good to me! I am head over heels, totally in love with him, and falling more and more everyday of my life! He has done so many great things in my life, and I am on a mission to tell everyone! I want what I have witnessed to glorify His name, and the only way that can happen is if I tell what I have witnessed from His mighty hands! Everything God has done for me, He is doing for people everywhere, and He can do it for everyone! We just have to allow Him to work freely in our lives, and surrender to Him! He’s nothing but good, all the time! He loves unconditionally, He is faithful, He is merciful, He is loving & caring! He’s awesome in every way, why would you not surrender!!

Thank You Daddy!

Dear Father,

Thank you! I can’t thank you enough! You have been so faithful just as you always are! In the middle of another storm, you have laid your hands upon us, you have touched us, you have been faithful to us, you have not failed us, you have showed us the rainbow yet again. Every storm in our lives, you have always showed us a visible rainbow, a rainbow of your promises to us.

I do not understand why this had to happen again, but I have accepted it’s not for me to understand. I do know that I have been praying for complete healing and restoration for my baby’s lung, and if this is what it took to be sure that happened, then God, that’s what it took, and I praise you for it. I know that you have a purpose for everything, a plan for everything, and that before any heartache or trial can touch my life, it must pass through your hands first. So even though I was once again surprised on Wednesday morning by this, you weren’t surprised. You knew it was coming. I do believe that you have been preparing me for these storms too! I have been so hungry for your word, to soak in as much as I can, and I have been so drawn to you, and have had such an overwhelming desire to grow closer to you with each passing day. I have realized that you were preparing me for the journey that my feet was about to find myself on. You have placed people in my life that would help me through this time, that would be able to encourage me, pray with me, speak life, encourage me to grow closer to you and remind me of your faithfulness at the moment that my faith would be shaken & that my soul would fall weak. You have filled my mind with your word and you planted it in my heart & soul so that I could recall it just when I needed it.You were planting my roots within you, so that at the very moment the storm blew through my life, I would not waiver with the wind, but be able to still stand firm in you.

I have praised you many times over for all that you have done in my life, for your faithfulness & goodness, your awesomeness & mercy, and it was those times that I have recalled in the last few days when I was trying hard to renew my mind on the hope that you have given me & reminding my breaking heart of all the times before that you have not left me, and that you have always been there!

Even yesterday Lord as I sat outside to steal some alone time with you, you reminded me of something that you placed within my mind just a couple of weeks ago as Carrie & I sat outside on our front porch. You reminded me as the wind blew around me about how the wind is like you in the sense that like you, some days we feel your presence stronger than others, but you are always there. I found comfort in the wind blowing through my hair at that moment, and as I felt the chills collect on my skin. I knew you were there, I knew it was you reminding me that you hear my cry, you hear my prayers, and that you are there faithfully.

As I sit and look at my beautiful daughter sitting up in her hospital bed with that gorgeous heart melting smile upon her face, I praise you, I thank you, I worship you! It is you! You are the reason she is here with me, you are the reason that she is smiling, you are the reason that her life is a witness to all around her, you are the reason that I stand today and have not fallen. You are the reason that my heart, even though it shattered into pieces, has been mended together even better than before. You are the reason God, every reason for everything in my life! I live my life for you, and your praise will forever be upon my lips! (Psalm 34:1)

In the moments of my weakness, you give me strength. When my heart breaks, you mend. When my mind battles with the enemy, you renew it. When my faith is shaken, you give it a firm foundation upon the rock! When my eyes see in the natural, you open them to the supernatural of your power! Thank you for the strength and the renewal that you have given me! Thank you for preparing me for this journey and planting my roots deep within you, and my relationship with you! Thank you for every single reminder you have sent my way in the last few days! Praise be to you for you have showed your wonderful love to me yet again! (Psalm 31:21)

Thank you Father! I Love you more than words can say, more than my lips will ever be able to praise! I know you do not waste pain, and you will use this to further your kingdom, and may we be in step with you as you do! We love you God!!

Love your daughter,