What is your goal? Your focus? Your greatest ambition? These are all questions that come up around New Years. Everyone starts evaluating where they are at in their lives in all areas and aspects. We all sit down and start contemplating what we want to change this year about ourselves. How can we improve our lives? How can we make sure we are happier this year than we were last year? I too, sat down & started asking myself some of the same questions….
My greatest ambition is to be even closer to God, and an even better Christian than I was last year, even the day before today. I don’t strive to be a career woman or for any title that this world may have to offer me, I don’t strive to make more money this year, or to weigh a certain number on the scale, I don’t care to be more popular with any particular crowd, or to achieve any particular status.
When I leave this world, I want to be more known for my heart, my morals, my values, my love for God, and for always striving to be more like Christ. I don’t need or desire any other title, label, or status. I feel sure that when I stand before my Father, He’s not going to want to see my checkbook, my car, my house or my business card. He sees right now at this very moment what He wants to see & know because He sees inside of my heart. There is no corner, no nook or cranny, no crevice that He does not see even now. He knows whether or not I’m for real or whether my heart is true and genuine. I can’t hide anything from Him, I can’t fake how I’m living my life day to day. The amazing part of it is He sees how hard I try everyday to be better than I was the day before, and even if I slip, mess up, and even fall, He still sees that I’m trying, and I know I can’t say that for the scale, or any boss. He’s there, hand held out, helping me up & getting me back on track.
“I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” ~Philippians 3:14
I don’t seek trying to be on top of any ladder other than the ladder leading to God’s heart. Success is all in what we make it to be, and to me success is being the best Christian, the best wife, and the best Mom that I can be, and I don’t dare compare the measure of my success against anyone else. I don’t try to be better than anyone else in any area of my life, because that will only cause me to see myself as a failure at times, or can cause anything other than humility in my heart. I only try to be better than I was the day before, the hour before, the minute before. I think sometimes we spend too much time trying to achieve a status or title according to the worlds standards & view, and not nearly enough according to God’s standards & views. This world & everything in it is temporary and will come to an end, and so will all the achievements that we brought ourselves to in it. I’m not saying by any means that it’s wrong to be successful in our jobs, or at a goal that we have, it just shouldn’t be the primary focus and achievement that we are striving for. God wants us to have success in all that we do, but He wants to be first in our lives, and to be the one that we focus on that leads us to success in all other areas of our lives.
“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.”
I struggle at times with striving to meet the expectations of this world, and then I realize I struggle because I am not meant to be of this world. I am of God, not of the world, and when I fail to remember that, I become frustrated, tired, and stressed. God didn’t put me in this world to become like the world, but to bring this world to His light, and in order to do that I must be more like Him. There are people we will cross paths will that may never have had any encounter with Jesus or His light, and He puts us in their path so that they can see it through us. We can’t make a difference in this world if we are one in the same with it.
“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is –his good, pleasing and perfect will.” ~Romans 12:2
So when I leave this world, this temporary home to go to my real home, I want my one greatest achievement to be that I become so much like my Father, that there is no doubt the family that I belong to, and that I became a better Christian with each passing day, and that it was clear that I love my Father! I want everyone who I leave behind, who was touched by my life in someway, at some moment in time, to know me as a child of God, to know that there was nothing more I wanted in life than to be more like Him, to serve Him, and that I tried harder each & every day to be a better person than I was before, to be what He wanted me to be, and that my priorities in life was the priorities that He wanted me to have. Success to me would be achieved if I achieved each of those things.
“Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.” ~Joshua 1:8