A few days ago as I was on my way to work I was riding down Main Street, listening to the radio, and for the past two years or more, it stays on K Love or New Life, and my drive time has become another opportunity to worship and praise. As I was driving and singing, and I do this very loudly and boldly in my car, I lifted my hand in praise, there was no stopping it, and no desire to, and I happen to notice there was a police officer sitting on the side apparently waiting to pull someone for speeding through this 35 mph zone. I also couldn’t help to notice that he was looking at me, probably wondering if this crazy woman was doing anything that deserved a ticket or at least be pulled over. I can recall a time when I felt very shy about my praise and worship, where if someone was around who didn’t praise the same way I wouldn’t, if I was driving down the road even I felt the spirit moving in me, I would hesitate. I can honestly say that those days have passed me by, Thank You Jesus for that one! I no longer hesitate, not even when I’m at the Y walking upstairs around the track with my MP3 singing and praising with hands raised high. My Father doesn’t hesitate to say He knows me, I won’t hesitate to let the world know that I know Him! He deserves my praise no matter where I am, no matter what I’m doing, He is worthy and deserves all glory & praise!
I am a very music oriented person by nature. I love to listen to music no matter what I may find myself doing. In the last couple of years I have listened to nothing but my praise & worship music, in the car, at home, while I clean, while I get ready each day, while I workout, everywhere! It has made such a difference in my life. It’s positive, uplifting, encouraging, and it’s so worth my time. It’s filling my heart and mind with those things that my mind and heart should be focused on, not things of this world. If I am encouraged and uplifted, then I can uplift and encourage others, if I am positive, then I can help others to be positive. If I am focused on how awesome God is, and what He has done, then I can help others who need to be reminded of that during what could be a very trying day for them.
I have a lot to praise God for in my life, and in song is one of my favorite ways to do so. I can remember the day that I walked in to my church, and heard the music playing, the songs being lifted up, and I can remember feeling the spirit all around me and in me, and I could tell that the voices that were lifting him up, are voices that have witnessed His love and grace. Although I sat towards the back, I sat behind the orchestra, and the music filled up my soul and moved within me in tune with God’s presence. I was drawn into worship like I had never been before. It was through this worship that I was experiencing week after week that every hard piece of my heart was breaking off, that every ounce of hurt was being removed. God knows me because He created me, and He knew that music was a way to speak to my heart in a way that words can not, and He used this music and these songs, this time of worship to break through the walls that had been built up around my heart for some time now. It’s like every song that was sang spoke directly to me, and even though I was new there, I was no longer concerned about what anyone around me might think about how I worship and how I praise! I lifted my hands up, I cried, I clapped, I even shouted a few times, Lord knows that was out of my normalcy. There was no denying the fact that God’s presence was there and it was very real, and He was moving in my heart, removing all that didn’t need to be there, all that hindered me from being who He wanted me to be, and building back up what did need to be there. A lot of healing took place in my life through worship. I even found myself having a desire to be the one up there praising and worshipping. I really felt like that was out of my character, but God said “No it’s not Angie, you were out of your character before, but now you are getting back into it!” It took me some time to take that step, but I can remember God telling me, “Go my child, it doesn’t matter whether or not you think you are good enough, I love your voice because it sings praises to Me, it is a witness to those around you to what I have done in your life, Go and sing your song!”
I took that step one Wednesday night, and I walked into the choir room for practice…..
Since that night, I can’t tell you how much I love singing in the choir! I thought my nerves would get the best of me being in front of 500-600+ people each week, but honestly, it doesn’t affect me like I thought it would. I have a story to tell, a story of what God has done in my life, a story that tells how awesome and amazing my God is, where He has brought me from, to where I am now, and I can do that through my worship. I don’t have to be the one singing a solo, I can do that through my worship no matter what song we are singing. I have shared with many how I feel, my personal experience up there, it’s as if I feel I’m on a cloud floating, and God is sitting there on His throne right in front of me, and I can close my eyes in that intimate worship and I can feel as if I can reach out and touch him, and I feel that direct line of connection to Him, it’s as if there is nothing or no one else in the room, it’s just me & Him. This is my time to tell Him how much I Love Him, how much I appreciate Him, how thankful I am for all that He’s done, doing and going to do, how grateful I am! That’s what that time is about to me. My prayer is that while I worship, so is everyone else, focusing on who God is, what He’s done, and How much He loves them, and let’s Him freely move within their hearts, forgetting everything else, just being in tune with God, not thinking about what anyone else might think while you praise & worship, just freely let Him move in you.
Worship is intimate to me, it’s a moment that I am focused on God, it’s me and Him engaged in a conversation, taking time to honor our relationship, and for me to just love Him like I never have before. I want my life to be an on going worship, He’s the reason that I live, He’s the reason that I sing every word of every song, the reason that I lift my hands, the reason that I lift my voices to places it may not even be capable of going, He’s the reason that every time I worship rather from the choir, or in the congregation, I sing with all that I have and all that I am, He is so worthy of my praise and worship! My voice is to bring honor and glory to Him! He’s the reason that I sing today, without Him, I would have no reason to sing any word, and if I did it would have no meaning or purpose!
I have a song in my heart always Lord, a song that you put there! I love to worship you because I know who you are, I have seen you in all your mighty ways, I have felt your undying, unconditional love, I have received your mercy,grace,forgiveness, I have seen your faithfulness. I worship you because I love you, because of who you are, and because I truly know who you are!! Thank you Lord for this heart of worship you have given me! I never want to fail in using it for your honor & glory! I will worship you, you are every reason I have to sing!!